Wednesday, February 8, 2012

the purpose in the first place...

I just finished reading through all my posts and although it was nice to walk down memory lane, I realized that the real reason why I started blogging wasn't addressed. I started blogging over 3 years ago with the goal of working towards self acceptance however I was scared. My thought was that if I wasn't able to accept myself then how were other people going to accept me? Turns out I'm my own worst critic (surprise!).

So my goal, love me for me. Now even though I haven't been blogging about this for the last three years, I have been working behind the scenes on this goal and have come a long way. Now to continue along this route towards my final destination.

There's research that says that if we express our goals to others, we're more likely to stick to them, so here I go!

..first stop... perfection ville...population, me ...and every other grad student out there, lol.

Believe it or not, for a long time I was in denial about being a perfectionist. I would think, me..unorganized, not great with time management... there's no way I'M a perfectionist...turns out I am, lol. My standards for myself go way beyond what is realistic. For instance, I believe that I should be able to work long days (with no breaks) and take no time off. In other words, I believe I should be a machine, which I'm not.

I think this belief started when I began grad school. All that pressure to be the best got to me, I guess. So now instead of down playing my successes, I'm going to give credit where credit is due.

Here's to walking the path to a better me :)

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